tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-75824846855555911782024-03-18T20:53:12.643-07:00Leisure PursuitSedeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00686686357759020274noreply@blogger.comBlogger23125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7582484685555591178.post-6367092441781876612013-07-11T10:31:00.000-07:002013-07-11T10:32:44.683-07:00I want to live<div class="MsoNormal">
My destiny is curved in the stone.</div>
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I try to change it; knowing the
impossibility,</div>
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I open the door of ambiguity,</div>
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And try to lose myself in
totality</div>
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But loosing myself I find the
real me,</div>
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The me, who want to continue to
exist, </div>
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Even though the ailing heart
threatens,</div>
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To stop and end this numerous torture.</div>
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My ailing heart will fail me
soon,</div>
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And no one will remember me.<br />
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But I want to live;</div>
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In the smiles of the babies,</div>
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In the scent of spring blossom,</div>
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In the colours of rainbows, </div>
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In the shower of monsoon,</div>
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In the falling leaves of autumn,</div>
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In the snow cold mountains of
winter,</div>
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In the gushing streams that flows
through my village.</div>
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Sedeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00686686357759020274noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7582484685555591178.post-38184455655463275032012-11-10T04:11:00.002-08:002012-11-10T04:11:43.769-08:00The deceit<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<b>As I lay on my bed waiting for death
to ease me from the pain that I had been going through since the time I had
learnt about my incurable cancer, my thought travels back to the time where I
had been as normal as any other around me. If only I hadn’t been so naïve as I
was then…<o:p></o:p></b></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';">There
comes a time when the secure life that one is leading would seem like a cage
where you feel like a caged bird who would resolve to go to any extent for the
sake of freedom; freedom from the normal schedule and explore some wild desires
which sometimes lay hidden until you would feel that you would do anything to
get a small piece of freedom not realizing the pitfalls that awaits you in
every single wrong steps you take. Naïve as I was then I did not realize the
dangers that laid ahead for venturing out of my secluded haven.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Tempus Sans ITC;">I
dared to venture out of my safe haven to explore the dark adventures of doom. I
was blissfully happy and contented. I don’t know how I had survived the mask of
a happy home maker and kept my family happy while I was sharing bed with my
lover on every pretext I could be away from home. My lover understood my
position and didn't demand more than I could give.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Tempus Sans ITC;">My
life to the family and friends looked perfect but only two people knew about the
double life I lead. We kept the affairs a secret and I was able to pretend to
have a normal life while in reality my deceitfulness was eating me. It could be
due to my deception or some normal phenomenon but some years later I was diagnosed
with cancer and had been undergoing treatment ever since with no positive
outcome. My family hasn't got any clue about my deception yet and I intend to
keep it that way. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';">My
lover who happens to be my family friend visits me often in the hospital and we
talk about all the good times we had before I learned about my disease. During his
visits he asks me whether I would have left my family for him for which I
honestly respond that I would never have left my family for him even though I
loved him. He smiles his knowing smile and says he would wait for me to change
my mind though he knows I would never have time to do that. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';">I
know we don’t get second chance in life but if ever I am given a second chance
I would never be able to make decision because I am doomed to love two person
at a time. Thus I wait for the death to lay its icy hands on me to ease my pain
that proliferate as the clock clicks away…<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Tempus Sans ITC';"><i><br /></i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Tempus Sans ITC;"><i>(Fictitious work purely based on writer's imagination)</i></span></div>
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Sedeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00686686357759020274noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7582484685555591178.post-14477919682585151212012-06-03T08:32:00.002-07:002012-06-03T08:32:40.502-07:00To my little angle<br />
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<span style="font-family: "Wickenden Cafe NDP"; font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">I know it’s hard; I know it’s tough.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Wickenden Cafe NDP"; font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">But one can’t have everything one
wishes, <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Wickenden Cafe NDP"; font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">For one have to move away,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Wickenden Cafe NDP"; font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">To fulfill one’s destiny<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Wickenden Cafe NDP"; font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">To leave the world a little better,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Wickenden Cafe NDP"; font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">A little brighter than it was at the
time of your entry.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Wickenden Cafe NDP"; font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">You might be away from us<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Wickenden Cafe NDP"; font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">We might be miles apart<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Wickenden Cafe NDP"; font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">But you are always in our thought,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Wickenden Cafe NDP"; font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Missed every single moment,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Wickenden Cafe NDP"; font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Spoken of at every conversation,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Wickenden Cafe NDP"; font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">And remembered at every occasion.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<br /></div>Sedeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00686686357759020274noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7582484685555591178.post-49227276036461959082011-11-04T23:32:00.005-07:002011-11-04T23:34:06.675-07:00My last wish<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><m:smallfrac m:val="off"> <m:dispdef> <m:lmargin m:val="0"> <m:rmargin m:val="0"> <m:defjc m:val="centerGroup"> <m:wrapindent m:val="1440"> <m:intlim m:val="subSup"> <m:narylim m:val="undOvr"> </m:narylim></m:intlim> </m:wrapindent> </m:defjc></m:rmargin></m:lmargin></m:dispdef></m:smallfrac><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #cccccc;">The cold wind rushes</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #cccccc;">Sending chill to my bones</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #cccccc;">The weather has changed </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #cccccc;">From the golden autumn</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #cccccc;">To the frosty winter</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #cccccc;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #cccccc;">The approach of coldness</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #cccccc;">A harsh reminder</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #cccccc;">Of my own condition</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #cccccc;">Of my remaining days</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #cccccc;">In this impermanent world</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #cccccc;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #cccccc;">I wish to walk the street</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #cccccc;">Feel the snowflakes on my fingertips</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #cccccc;">Smile at the passing strangers</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #cccccc;">Dance among the strangers</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #cccccc;">Before death lay its icy claws on me</div></div>Sedeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00686686357759020274noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7582484685555591178.post-78795942201898815142011-10-01T04:04:00.000-07:002011-10-01T04:07:06.308-07:00Prelude to the sacrifice<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><m:smallfrac m:val="off"> <m:dispdef> <m:lmargin m:val="0"> <m:rmargin m:val="0"> <m:defjc m:val="centerGroup"> <m:wrapindent m:val="1440"> <m:intlim m:val="subSup"> <m:narylim m:val="undOvr"> </m:narylim></m:intlim> </m:wrapindent> </m:defjc></m:rmargin></m:lmargin></m:dispdef></m:smallfrac><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #548dd4; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">He woke up cursing his throbbing head and check his table clock at the side of his bed which read 4.00 am in the morning- his time for morning jog which he had been doing since his high school days. Whispering a few more curses, he was out of his front door in ten minutes sprinting towards his destination- a small hilltop that over looked the sleepy town in the morning which would soon be bursting with activity as the day progressed.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #548dd4; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">His morning routine had always relaxed his muscles and gave him the solitary peace he needed to unfold the day. As he jogged, his headache continued which made him curse again aloud; </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #548dd4; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">“Why didn’t I stop myself when Namgay went for a third round of that bloody ara! Damn! My head aches so”.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #548dd4; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">Cursing on his foolishness he continued his jog and reached a turn on the road when he felt a sharp pain on his chest which almost chocked him. Suddenly come to a halt, he tried to take a deep breath. The other joggers thought he was taking some rest and waved as they passed him. He could merely try to smile and wave back. As the second passed, the pain started to suffocate him and he passed out.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #548dd4; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">When he came to his sense, he found himself surrounded by strangers in a strange room with lots of tubes connected to his body. He looked around alarmed and a man in white coat smiled and came towards him. After making a few queries about his personal information, he left the room. Slowly the other strangers too followed the first man. He was left alone. His first thought was to call his only sister but he decided against it because it would mean her travelling all the way for two long days with two small children and he didn’t want his sister to go through that. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #548dd4; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">A few minutes passed and he saw his friend Namgay dashing through the door with a bewildered eyes.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #548dd4; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">“What happened?”</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #548dd4; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">“I donno. I guess I passed out”.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #548dd4; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">“Thank god you are alright now. Any way let me check with the doc”. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #548dd4; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">Sonam smiled through the pain which seemed to have somehow subsided said; “hey. Don’t worry man. I think its due to the stress with work and I am sure it’s due to the drinks we had last night. Chill man!”</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #548dd4; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">When the door closed behind his friend a chill went through his spine as he recollected a similar scene. His father was occupying a similar bed and his mother was beside his bedridden father. He had been called from his college saying that his father was sick but he had no idea of how sick he was until he saw him lying almost lifeless as if waiting to see his children before he departed from this world. He saw his father breathing his last in the similar room and the thought made him scream which brought the nurse attendant to his aid in a matter of seconds. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #548dd4; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">He was given seductive and kept under observation. Later in the evening, when we fully regained his consciousness he decided to go home but the doctors advised him against it and he had to spend a night in the hospital. He was informed that his was a case of mild cardiac arrest and was advised to seek medical help. He agreed and he started getting the medical aid and continued his work with the same zest at his office but he felt the change in the attitude of his colleagues against him. He was looked with pitiful eyes and he hated it when the people whispered behind him as if he had some rare disease.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #548dd4; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">He wanted to live a full life and didn’t want any sympathy from people around him reminding him of his heart problem and decided that he would move away from the place. He got transferred to a branch office in the east as manager and started working there. He kept mostly to himself but made a few acquaintances who didn’t know about his story. The people in the area came to look upon him as eligible bachelor and many parents tried to make an extra effort to woo him as a potential son-in-law but his decision remained adamant for marriage had no room in his life. He had seen enough problems in his sister’s life to understand that it gave nothing but sorrow. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #548dd4; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">Thus he continued to live among the strangers and continued his medical treatment on regular basis. He would disappear from his office every two months on the so called tour and people started doubting whether he had a family some place away but none asked him about it. No one knew that the time he spent away from office was spent in the hospital examining his poor heart and get consultation from his doctor. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #548dd4; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">The three years he spent among the strangers made him understand the life better. He had more time to himself to reflect on his life and he saw life in a new light. The small community lived in harmony and every occasion was celebrated as a family inclusive him. He started participating in such celebration and came to know a few people but never revealed about himself. He spent money regularly to his sister every month and saved for his two nieces whom he hadn’t seen since their birth. He kept their pictures at his office and home and called them every fortnight but his relationship with his drunkard brother-in-law remained same. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #548dd4; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">Three years of solitude and his life had to end in the flood that could have claimed the life of others had he not sacrificed his life. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #548dd4; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">As Sonam breathe his last, a small girl couldn’t help her tears. There were many like her who owed their life to the man who had just sacrificed his own for people who even didn’t know him well. The girl made a small prayer to the departed soul and wondered about the man who had saved her a few hours ago from being washed away by the gushing river. The figure though known by all was a stranger to all yet he made his mark at the dusk of his life.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;">(fictitious work purely based on writer's imagination)</div></div>Sedeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00686686357759020274noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7582484685555591178.post-68510191780789892962011-09-28T04:52:00.000-07:002011-09-28T05:15:33.102-07:00The sacrifice<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><m:smallfrac m:val="off"> <m:dispdef> <m:lmargin m:val="0"> <m:rmargin m:val="0"> <m:defjc m:val="centerGroup"> <m:wrapindent m:val="1440"> <m:intlim m:val="subSup"> <m:narylim m:val="undOvr"> </m:narylim></m:intlim> </m:wrapindent> </m:defjc></m:rmargin></m:lmargin></m:dispdef></m:smallfrac><br />
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</tbody></table><span style="color: #548dd4; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">The day was like any other summer day with the heavy down pour which made every sensible person to stay in the cozy corner of his dwelling. The continuous rain had swollen the river to the extent that it was threatening to overflow the bank yet the people residing there had no worries because there hadn’t been any life-threatening incidence in the valley till date and they were very confident that the valley would continue to remain so till the end of time.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #548dd4; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">Sonam, one prominent inhabitant in the area was sitting near the hearth relaxing with a cup of <b><i>ara</i></b> (locally brewed alcohol) after the hectic day in the office. The time on the wall cock showed half past seven in the evening and he felt quite drowsy. Making a quick dinner using the noodles (which he kept for some emergencies) he hurriedly ate it and went to bed. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #548dd4; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">The torrent rain on his roof made it impossible for him to sleep though he was dead tired. He turned and tossed on his bed. After sometime, he knew that sleep was unattainable and went for a second round of <b><i>ara</i></b>. As he moved towards the cabinet where he kept his prized possession (the different brand of drinks) we felt something wet on his feet which shook all the drowsiness off him. He was baffled and put on all the lights. What he saw took all this sanity away. The water was gushing into the house at an alarming speed. His first and the only thought was to get away from the room. Without a second thought, he rushed out screaming; “Flood…Flood…everyone….get out!”</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #548dd4; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">Many people came out shouting with torches, carrying their children. They made way to the hilltop some distance away. Sonam stayed back helping some needy neighbours and carrying their children to the safer distance. He made several such trips and his limbs ached due to cold but he didn’t stop. His only thought was to save his neighbours. He worked selflessly to save the people he came to love during his three years stay in the area. When the rescue team arrived, he had already guided his people to safety and erected some tents with the help of the inhabitants. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #548dd4; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">He was highly praised for his selfless service. The people flocked around him to thank him and he smiled acknowledging them but no one noticed his tired limbs and his haggled breath. His heart was giving away and this time, no doctors were there to save him. He breathe his last as the dawn broke and he had a smile on his face as he greeted the new day in his passing.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #548dd4; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">(To be continued…)</span><br />
<span style="color: #548dd4; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">Note: Fictitious work purely based on writer's imagination </span><br />
<span style="color: #548dd4; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";"> </span></div></div>Sedeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00686686357759020274noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7582484685555591178.post-80466854990832432132011-09-15T07:22:00.000-07:002011-09-15T07:26:07.742-07:00Had I had my way…<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><m:smallfrac m:val="off"> <m:dispdef> <m:lmargin m:val="0"> <m:rmargin m:val="0"> <m:defjc m:val="centerGroup"> <m:wrapindent m:val="1440"> <m:intlim m:val="subSup"> <m:narylim m:val="undOvr"> </m:narylim></m:intlim> </m:wrapindent> </m:defjc></m:rmargin></m:lmargin></m:dispdef></m:smallfrac><br />
<m:smallfrac m:val="off"> <m:dispdef> <m:lmargin m:val="0"> <m:rmargin m:val="0"> <m:defjc m:val="centerGroup"> <m:wrapindent m:val="1440"> <m:intlim m:val="subSup"> <m:narylim m:val="undOvr"> </m:narylim></m:intlim> </m:wrapindent> </m:defjc></m:rmargin></m:lmargin></m:dispdef></m:smallfrac><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #4f6228; font-family: "Kristen ITC";">Sitting on the balcony, my thoughts wander and I start thinking about all those experiences that I had and wonder whether my life had been worth living. Had I had my way, I would have embraced the death sooner instead of seeing my family face the terror on my account. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #4f6228; font-family: "Kristen ITC";">Every day they put a brave face and try to smile through the tears but I know what they are going through. It had been that way since the day they discovered about my illness. It had been an ill-fated winter morning when I blacked out in my office and my colleague found me senseless in the office. After a few chaotic moments they had transported me to the hospital where I had been tested through various medical examinations. The doctors did not find anything wrong with my report and I was sent home after a few days in the hospital.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #4f6228; font-family: "Kristen ITC";">But as I started passing out more frequently, my family got anxious and I had to go another series of medical examination where I was diagnosed with leukemia. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #4f6228; font-family: "Kristen ITC";">Now after two years of medication and a series chemotherapy treatment at the cancer hospital in Kolkata, I am home but my condition is haven’t improved much. I regularly visit the hospital for review and try to live a normal life but my health is deteriorating.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #4f6228; font-family: "Kristen ITC";">Every evening as I go to sleep, I look up into the face of my family fearing that it would be the last time I would be seeing them and I can see the same dread in their eyes. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #4f6228; font-family: "Kristen ITC";">All I can do for now is pray that my death be easy and early so that my family doesn’t have to go through another day of dread and wretchedness.</span><br />
<span style="color: #4f6228; font-family: "Kristen ITC";"><i>(*Note: This is a real story of a friend )</i></span></div></div>Sedeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00686686357759020274noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7582484685555591178.post-79692705266244943832011-08-28T01:58:00.001-07:002011-09-15T07:27:26.934-07:00The emptiness<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">In a crowded street<br />
I try to find my way<br />
but I know I am lost<br />
lost in my own thoughts<br />
thoughts of loneliness<br />
unaware of my surrounding.<br />
<br />
<br />
people walk pass me<br />
giving a quizzical look<br />
not daring to ask<br />
for they are aware<br />
for my need of isolation<br />
to sort out my thoughts<br />
<br />
<br />
A hole inside my heart<br />
makes me breathe hard<br />
In dire need of warmth<br />
I shun those memories<br />
but it makes me feel worse<br />
for I am empty within</div>Sedeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00686686357759020274noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7582484685555591178.post-48657536927704271712011-08-22T03:36:00.000-07:002011-09-15T07:28:14.842-07:00Wonder why<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><m:smallfrac m:val="off"> <m:dispdef> <m:lmargin m:val="0"> <m:rmargin m:val="0"> <m:defjc m:val="centerGroup"> <m:wrapindent m:val="1440"> <m:intlim m:val="subSup"> <m:narylim m:val="undOvr"> </m:narylim></m:intlim> </m:wrapindent> </m:defjc></m:rmargin></m:lmargin></m:dispdef></m:smallfrac><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 11pt;">The immense desire in my heart</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 11pt;">To kiss my land of birth</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 11pt;">Before I fade from this mortal world</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 11pt;">The world that despise me</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 11pt;">The humanity seems suddenly ruthless</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 11pt;">For the pursuit of materialistic bliss</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 11pt;">I too have joined the race of callousness</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 11pt;">And in the process lost my ideals</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 11pt;">I have had enough of this insensitivity</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 11pt;">Where a blood can deceive another</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 11pt;">Never had I seen such cruelty</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 11pt;">And malice of the other</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 11pt;">Gone are the days of principles</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 11pt;">The trust and bonds of togetherness</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 11pt;">The feelings of shared alliance</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 11pt;">Only vile and evil resides.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div></div>Sedeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00686686357759020274noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7582484685555591178.post-64486651650551580832011-08-20T01:13:00.000-07:002011-09-15T07:29:57.698-07:00Time has come<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><m:smallfrac m:val="off"> <m:dispdef> <m:lmargin m:val="0"> <m:rmargin m:val="0"> <m:defjc m:val="centerGroup"> <m:wrapindent m:val="1440"> <m:intlim m:val="subSup"> <m:narylim m:val="undOvr"> </m:narylim></m:intlim> </m:wrapindent> </m:defjc></m:rmargin></m:lmargin></m:dispdef></m:smallfrac><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: "Cambria","serif";">Looking gaunt and pale</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: "Cambria","serif";">I wait for my call</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: "Cambria","serif";">The call that had been long coming</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: "Cambria","serif";">But my folks wouldn’t let go of me</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: "Cambria","serif";">I remind them the law of impermanence</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: "Cambria","serif";">Whisper to them the songs of unrequited love</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: "Cambria","serif";">The tales of blessed togetherness</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: "Cambria","serif";">And the waiting farewell</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: "Cambria","serif";">My spectral thin skin</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: "Cambria","serif";">My feeble wan look</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: "Cambria","serif";">Sends chill to their heart</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: "Cambria","serif";">For now my time has come.</span></div></div>Sedeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00686686357759020274noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7582484685555591178.post-43771745411915887842011-07-21T04:35:00.000-07:002011-09-15T07:31:11.911-07:00Yearning<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><m:smallfrac m:val="off"> <m:dispdef> <m:lmargin m:val="0"> <m:rmargin m:val="0"> <m:defjc m:val="centerGroup"> <m:wrapindent m:val="1440"> <m:intlim m:val="subSup"> <m:narylim m:val="undOvr"> </m:narylim></m:intlim> </m:wrapindent> </m:defjc></m:rmargin></m:lmargin></m:dispdef></m:smallfrac><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #00b050; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">Feeling the warm breeze on my rippled skin;</span><span style="color: #17365d; font-family: "Segoe Print";"></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #00b050; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">The breeze which soothes my nerve,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #00b050; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">Where the sores are teeming up,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #00b050; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">Consuming my frail energy.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><br />
<span style="color: #00b050; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">Seeing the people passing by,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #00b050; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">Some in haste, some leisurely,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #00b050; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">All on move but me,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #00b050; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">And I eye them enviously.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #00b050; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">Gazing from the balcony,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #00b050; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">I stretch my eyes as far as it can take,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #00b050; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">To capture in the days note from afar,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #00b050; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">For I cannot venture outside.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #00b050; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">The summer clouds gathers on the horizon,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #00b050; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">Promising torrent rain,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #00b050; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">The rain that I have been yearning for,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #00b050; font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">For the last dance before my heavenly flight.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div></div>Sedeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00686686357759020274noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7582484685555591178.post-23839973484736744562011-06-26T20:14:00.003-07:002011-06-26T20:15:16.601-07:00Dance<m:smallfrac m:val="off"> <m:dispdef> <m:lmargin m:val="0"> <m:rmargin m:val="0"> <m:defjc m:val="centerGroup"> <m:wrapindent m:val="1440"> <m:intlim m:val="subSup"> <m:narylim m:val="undOvr"> </m:narylim></m:intlim> </m:wrapindent> </m:defjc></m:rmargin></m:lmargin></m:dispdef></m:smallfrac><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Reclining on my bed,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Listening to the platter of raindrops,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Smelling the fresh summer breeze,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">I feel myself rejuvenate.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><br />
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</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">How I wish to go out,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Get drenched to my bones,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Feel the raindrops on my skin,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">And dance in the rain.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Alas! A wish always remain a wish,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">For I am confined to bed,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Neither can I move nor can I dance,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">For my limbs are invalid.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">But I can wander my thoughts,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">To the land of blissful delight,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Where my invalid limbs unconcerned,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">I dance to the utmost limit.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><br />
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<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Lost in my thought</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">I recollect the time</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">When I was sturdy </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Unlike my present state<a name='more'></a></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Many months have I endured</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Combating the malady</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Upholding steadily</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">While fading inside</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">A year has passed </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Since the truth was found</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">The remedy unavailable</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">The passing seems inevitable</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Your icy clutches on my throat</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Drains me of my breathe</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">It’s time for me to go</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">To the land of no return</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">As I fade from this world,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">Will I be remembered?</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">I know not</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif";">For the future seems too absurd. </span></div>Sedeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00686686357759020274noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7582484685555591178.post-88132060562383524002011-06-06T02:16:00.001-07:002011-06-06T20:22:19.943-07:00DEATH<m:smallfrac m:val="off"> <m:dispdef> <m:lmargin m:val="0"> <m:rmargin m:val="0"> <m:defjc m:val="centerGroup"> <m:wrapindent m:val="1440"> <m:intlim m:val="subSup"> <m:narylim m:val="undOvr"> </m:narylim></m:intlim> </m:wrapindent> </m:defjc></m:rmargin></m:lmargin></m:dispdef></m:smallfrac><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #38761d; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif; text-align: justify;">Often had I wondered</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #38761d; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif; text-align: justify;">How I would meet you </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #38761d; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif; text-align: justify;">Never have I dreamt </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #38761d; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif; text-align: justify;">You would choose me sooner</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #38761d; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"><br />
<a name='more'></a><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #38761d; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif; text-align: justify;">Many a things to do</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #38761d; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif; text-align: justify;">So little time</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #38761d; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif; text-align: justify;">Dreams to be fulfilled</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #38761d; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif; text-align: justify;">Destiny to be accomplished</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #38761d; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #38761d; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif; text-align: justify;">Time’s winged chariot </div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #38761d; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif; text-align: justify;">Hurrying near my doorstep</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #38761d; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif; text-align: justify;">trying to lure me away</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #38761d; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif; text-align: justify;">before the assigned time</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #38761d; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #38761d; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif; text-align: justify;">your icy clutches near my throat</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #38761d; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif; text-align: justify;">Suffocates me further</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #38761d; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif; text-align: justify;">I know my time has come</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="color: #38761d; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif; text-align: justify;">Yet I would fight you till the end</div>Sedeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00686686357759020274noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7582484685555591178.post-6973239075180272742011-03-25T02:04:00.001-07:002011-03-25T02:04:14.883-07:00Loving someone<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml> <w:WordDocument> <w:View>Normal</w:View> <w:Zoom>0</w:Zoom> <w:PunctuationKerning/> <w:ValidateAgainstSchemas/> <w:SaveIfXMLInvalid>false</w:SaveIfXMLInvalid> <w:IgnoreMixedContent>false</w:IgnoreMixedContent> <w:AlwaysShowPlaceholderText>false</w:AlwaysShowPlaceholderText> <w:Compatibility> <w:BreakWrappedTables/> <w:SnapToGridInCell/> <w:WrapTextWithPunct/> <w:UseAsianBreakRules/> <w:DontGrowAutofit/> </w:Compatibility> <w:BrowserLevel>MicrosoftInternetExplorer4</w:BrowserLevel> </w:WordDocument> </xml><![endif]--><!--[if gte mso 9]><xml> <w:LatentStyles DefLockedState="false" LatentStyleCount="156"> </w:LatentStyles> </xml><![endif]--><!--[if gte mso 10]> <style>
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</style> <![endif]--> <div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #339966; font-size: 14pt;">“Loving someone is never an assurance that someone should love us back but to keep loving…” is something that I heard during my high school days. The words sounded hollow at that time because I could not comprehend the real meaning. I was always sure that if love did happened to me, I would take it as a gift and share it with the one fated with me. Never did I realize that such gift is bestowed to the fortunate one only.<a name='more'></a></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #339966; font-size: 14pt;">A decade down the line and I settled with someone my parents choose. The trust and understanding that we were bonded with withered all the storms of our life and the life was gliding smoothly until I came upon someone who turned my life upside down. It was no fault of his and at the moment he doesn’t even know about how I feel about him. I have hidden it in the depth of my heart and tried to burry it because I know the grave consequences of letting such emotions known. I have so much at stake and I don’t want to hurt people I care.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #339966; font-size: 14pt;">Everyday, he texts me to know about what I am doing and I do the same. We call each other once in a while but we have never made the other known about our true feelings about each other. <span> </span>He asks me for date sometimes which I decline on some pretext because I do not want to encourage him on something that has no future. I know both of us will suffer whether we are together or apart because nothing feels same anymore. And I would prefer to suffer being apart because he has his whole life ahead of him. I want him to have better future with a better person. He had tried many a times to tell me his true feelings but I turn deaf ears and pretend that I am blissfully happy with what I have though the only thing that I really want is to be in his arms. Lord! Give me strength to let him go.</span></div>Sedeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00686686357759020274noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7582484685555591178.post-72832341031676928752011-03-18T07:44:00.000-07:002011-03-18T07:44:42.693-07:00My untamed heart<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml> <o:OfficeDocumentSettings> <o:RelyOnVML/> <o:AllowPNG/> </o:OfficeDocumentSettings> </xml><![endif]--><!--[if gte mso 9]><xml> <w:WordDocument> <w:View>Normal</w:View> <w:Zoom>0</w:Zoom> <w:PunctuationKerning/> <w:ValidateAgainstSchemas/> <w:SaveIfXMLInvalid>false</w:SaveIfXMLInvalid> <w:IgnoreMixedContent>false</w:IgnoreMixedContent> <w:AlwaysShowPlaceholderText>false</w:AlwaysShowPlaceholderText> <w:Compatibility> <w:BreakWrappedTables/> <w:SnapToGridInCell/> <w:WrapTextWithPunct/> <w:UseAsianBreakRules/> <w:DontGrowAutofit/> </w:Compatibility> </w:WordDocument> </xml><![endif]--><!--[if gte mso 9]><xml> <w:LatentStyles DefLockedState="false" LatentStyleCount="156"> </w:LatentStyles> </xml><![endif]--><!--[if gte mso 10]> <style>
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</style> <![endif]--> </h3><h3 style="text-align: justify;"><span class="uistorymessage"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Comic Sans MS"; font-size: 11pt; font-weight: normal;">Sitting on the crossroad</span></span></h3><h3 style="text-align: justify;"><span class="uistorymessage"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Comic Sans MS"; font-size: 11pt; font-weight: normal;">Thinking of those gone days</span></span></h3><h3 style="text-align: justify;"><span class="uistorymessage"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Comic Sans MS"; font-size: 11pt; font-weight: normal;">And the days yet to come</span></span></h3><h3 style="text-align: justify;"><span class="uistorymessage"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Comic Sans MS"; font-size: 11pt; font-weight: normal;">Unable to comprehend my present</span></span></h3><h3 style="text-align: justify;"><span class="uistorymessage"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Comic Sans MS"; font-size: 11pt; font-weight: normal;"> <a name='more'></a></span></span></h3><h3 style="text-align: justify;"><span class="uistorymessage"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Comic Sans MS"; font-size: 11pt; font-weight: normal;">Wondering where the road would lead</span></span></h3><h3 style="text-align: justify;"><span class="uistorymessage"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Comic Sans MS"; font-size: 11pt; font-weight: normal;">Knowing the comfort I had left</span></span></h3><h3 style="text-align: justify;"><span class="uistorymessage"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Comic Sans MS"; font-size: 11pt; font-weight: normal;">And the ambiguity ahead</span></span></h3><h3 style="text-align: justify;"><span class="uistorymessage"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Comic Sans MS"; font-size: 11pt; font-weight: normal;">Yet I choose to move forward</span></span></h3><h3 style="text-align: justify;"><span class="uistorymessage"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Comic Sans MS"; font-size: 11pt; font-weight: normal;"> </span></span></h3><h3 style="text-align: justify;"><span class="uistorymessage"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Comic Sans MS"; font-size: 11pt; font-weight: normal;">Love does that to me</span></span></h3><h3 style="text-align: justify;"><span class="uistorymessage"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Comic Sans MS"; font-size: 11pt; font-weight: normal;">For it sees no reason </span></span></h3><h3 style="text-align: justify;"><span class="uistorymessage"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Comic Sans MS"; font-size: 11pt; font-weight: normal;">And I am but a slave to my heart</span></span></h3><h3 style="text-align: justify;"><span class="uistorymessage"><span style="color: green; font-family: "Comic Sans MS"; font-size: 11pt; font-weight: normal;">My untamed heart!</span></span></h3><h3 style="text-align: justify;"><span class="uistorymessage"><span style="font-family: "Comic Sans MS"; font-size: 11pt; font-weight: normal;"> </span></span></h3>Sedeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00686686357759020274noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7582484685555591178.post-35182534414020473692010-12-08T05:16:00.000-08:002011-02-19T01:51:34.486-08:00I still love him<h3><span class="uistorymessage" style="font-size: 100%;"><span style="font-family: ";">I know I should let go</span></span></h3><h3><span class="uistorymessage" style="font-size: 100%;"><span style="font-family: ";">But heart does not permit</span></span></h3><h3><span class="uistorymessage" style="font-size: 100%;"><span style="font-family: ";">It craves to hear those lost words</span></span></h3><h3><span class="uistorymessage" style="font-size: 100%;"><span style="font-family: ";">Words from the bygone days<a name='more'></a></span></span></h3><br />
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<h3><span class="uistorymessage" style="font-size: 100%;"><span style="font-family: ";"> </span></span></h3><h3><span class="uistorymessage" style="font-size: 100%;"><span style="font-family: ";">Though it has been ages </span></span></h3><h3><span class="uistorymessage" style="font-size: 100%;"><span style="font-family: ";">I know you felt for me once</span></span></h3><h3><span class="uistorymessage" style="font-size: 100%;"><span style="font-family: ";">I know you had been led astray </span></span></h3><h3><span class="uistorymessage" style="font-size: 100%;"><span style="font-family: ";">But I believe you will come back </span></span></h3><br />
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<h3><span class="uistorymessage" style="font-size: 100%;"><span style="font-family: ";"> </span></span></h3><h3><span class="uistorymessage" style="font-size: 100%;"><span style="font-family: ";">The belief keeps me alive </span></span></h3><h3><span class="uistorymessage" style="font-size: 100%;"><span style="font-family: ";">And I am waiting for you</span></span></h3><h3><span class="uistorymessage" style="font-size: 100%;"><span style="font-family: ";">But this wait is taking forever</span></span></h3><h3><span class="uistorymessage" style="font-size: 100%;"><span style="font-family: ";">And yet I cant let go</span></span></h3>Sedeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00686686357759020274noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7582484685555591178.post-14876216014860494722010-06-25T05:35:00.000-07:002011-02-19T01:51:52.031-08:00I saw him again<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">I saw him again. He hadn't changed. The mole on the side of his nose was as distinct as it used to be. He had the same twinkle in his eyes and the same smile that used to have me hypnotized. It looked as if time has remained frozen for him. There wasn't a single trace of change on him that I could detect. <a name='more'></a><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">The sight of him standing at a distance took my breath away as it used to. It has been fifteen years since he left yet I could remember him like yesterday. I longed to be in his arms and feel his soft kisses on my cheeks but I knew that it was impossible now. I never knew what went wrong which made him drift away from me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">Seeing him at a distance had me rooted on the ground. My friend saw the dazed look in my eyes and asked whether I had seen a ghost. Indeed it was a ghost I was looking at- the ghost from my past. I didn't have a word to respond to her and she shoved me inside a restaurant for which I was grateful. I sat at a table which overlooked the street across where the ghost from my past was standing as if waiting for someone.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">Seeing him there brought back the memories of the good old times that we had, the unfulfilled promises we made and the heart break that I suffered when he disappeared. My eyes welled up with thought and my friend who had been observing me was worried because she had never seen the emotional side of me. I had long since learned to burry my emotions which I dug out only at the lone moments when I was alone. The people around knew me as a composed, self made person who lived the life on her terms. No one knew the scared, emotional and lonely soul which resided masked underneath the confident lady.<o:p></o:p></span></div><span style="font-family: Arial;">The very thought of him being so near brought out the emotional side of me which was hidden deep inside my heart. I had built a wall around me which did not permit anyone to pry into my life. Many had tried to know the real me in the last fifteen years but failed and left me at peace saying that I was meant to be alone. I agreed to that and was satisfied with what the life had to offer because I did not believe in falling in love twice. I had had my share of love and the memories of the bygone days are enough to lead me till the end of my time yet seeing him again made wish if only…….</span>Sedeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00686686357759020274noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7582484685555591178.post-4273079158663169172010-06-25T05:33:00.000-07:002011-02-19T01:52:22.037-08:00What love can do<div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 17px;">There comes a time when things happen when we least expect. The unexpected turn of events changes our lives forever. Strangers turn out to be the best of buddies and some people whom we look upon fade from our lives with the passage of time.<a name='more'></a><o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 17px;">The winds of destiny blows, sometimes furiously like a hurricane and we get drifted with its force. At other times it is barely noticeable as it gently fans our cheek. Either way we cannot deny the call of destiny as they hold our untold future. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 17px;">The furious hurricane blew one day and she got drifted away from the shore that had been her haven. Her haven was intruded by an imposter in disguise. He came to her like a knight in shining armour and she believed every little thing he said. He came like a hurricane and she drifted along with him like an autumn leaves. She had no control over her life. Her day began with his thought and ended with his dream. She was the happiest person while it lasted. Alas! Every thing that begins must end and it did end but the end was not what she expected. She had painted a beautiful future of a fairy tale but she learned that her life was no where near that. Her knight disappeared one day without a notice and never returned. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 17px;">She lost her will to live because she had forgotten to live her life independently. She had never dreamt that she would be left the way she was and she waited for some lightening to strike her dead. She tried to keep busy with her work and took one assignment after another to keep her occupied but at the end of the day she had to return to the empty house which she dreaded. She took solace in alcohol and puff of smoke to sooth her nerves. She built a cocoon around her where no one could penetrate. Many have tried to know her but she does not want another imposter to intrude her haven again. She had learned a lesson a bitter way. Love hurts!<br />
</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif; text-align: justify;"><span comic="" ms="" sans=""><span style="font-size: 17px;">A small action can change the destiny of someone.</span></span></div>Sedeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00686686357759020274noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7582484685555591178.post-31990935384606260872010-06-25T05:31:00.000-07:002011-02-19T01:52:41.981-08:00The lost love<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">There was a time when I was in love, helplessly in love. I dreamt of sharing my future with him. He meant a world to me. And I danced to his tune. He proclaimed his love for me and I believed every word he said. After knowing him for two years, he disappeared one day without a word. I kept looking for him, hoping against hope that I would find him some day. I did find him but it took me fifteen years. What did I see? He wasn't the same person anymore. He was happily settled with a daughter. There was no place for me in his life.<a name='more'></a><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"><o:p> </o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: Arial;">My parents were right when they said that I was wasting away my life. I wanted to be realistic but I was a slave to my craving heart. What ever happened, I am glad that I found my share of love though not for eternity as I had always wished. In those two years of togetherness, I had lived my life to the fullest and nothing matters now.<o:p></o:p></span></div><span class="small-txt"></span>Sedeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00686686357759020274noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7582484685555591178.post-54410308781151391932010-06-25T05:30:00.000-07:002011-02-19T01:53:44.411-08:00My heavenly walk<div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Tahoma; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 15px;">On my heavenly walk in the woods<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Tahoma; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 15px;">I smell the lush green grass after the summer showers,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Tahoma; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 15px;">Finger the dew drops on the leaves,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Tahoma; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 15px;">Spot the fluttering butterflies and<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Tahoma; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 15px;">Listen to the humming bees<a name='more'></a></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Tahoma; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Tahoma; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 15px;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Tahoma; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 15px;"><o:p> </o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Tahoma; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 15px;">I sing along as I walk<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Tahoma; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 15px;">Until I come across a silhouette<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Tahoma; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 15px;">Who sweeps me off my feet<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Tahoma; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 15px;">Cupping me in his embrace<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Tahoma; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 15px;">Promising me an eternal bliss</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Tahoma; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Tahoma; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 15px;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Tahoma; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 15px;"><o:p> </o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Tahoma; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 15px;">I dance to his tune and sing his song<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Tahoma; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 15px;">And for a time he keeps me on<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Tahoma; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 15px;">until he sees another damsel on his Wednesday out<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: Tahoma; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 15px;">For he leaves me on a cross road<o:p></o:p></span></div><span style="font-size: 14pt;"><span style="font-family: Tahoma; font-size: 15px;">Ending my heavenly walk forever…..</span></span>Sedeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00686686357759020274noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7582484685555591178.post-42395906897612759032010-06-25T05:27:00.000-07:002010-06-25T05:28:52.346-07:00My craving heart<p class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: yui-tmp;"><span style="font-size: 14px; font-family: Tahoma;">My heart craves for a walk in the woods, <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: yui-tmp;"><span style="font-size: 14px; font-family: Tahoma;">The chirping of the birds,<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: yui-tmp;"><span style="font-size: 14px; font-family: Tahoma;">The smell of the green grass after the shower,<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: yui-tmp;"><span style="font-size: 14px; font-family: Tahoma;">The breathe of fresh air <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: yui-tmp;"><span style="font-size: 14px; font-family: Tahoma;">The sound of the gushing river<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: yui-tmp;"><span style="font-size: 14px; font-family: Tahoma;"><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: yui-tmp;"><span style="font-size: 14px; font-family: Tahoma;">But all I get is the sight of dull buildings,<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: yui-tmp;"><span style="font-size: 14px; font-family: Tahoma;">The buzzing of the mosquitoes<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: yui-tmp;"><span style="font-size: 14px; font-family: Tahoma;">The smell of the gutters<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: yui-tmp;"><span style="font-size: 14px; font-family: Tahoma;">The breath of the polluted air<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: yui-tmp;"><span style="font-size: 14px; font-family: Tahoma;">The noise of the vehicles <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: yui-tmp;"><span style="font-size: 14px; font-family: Tahoma;"><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: yui-tmp;"><span style="font-size: 14px; font-family: Tahoma;">I crave for a modest love from my mate<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: yui-tmp;"><span style="font-size: 14px; font-family: Tahoma;">a small recognition from my superior<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: yui-tmp;"><span style="font-size: 14px; font-family: Tahoma;">a diminutive smile from my subordinate <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: yui-tmp;"><span style="font-size: 14px; font-family: Tahoma;">a sincere friendship and<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: yui-tmp;"><span style="font-size: 14px; font-family: Tahoma;">a tiny place in your heart<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: yui-tmp;"><span style="font-size: 14px; font-family: Tahoma;"><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: yui-tmp;"><span style="font-size: 14px; font-family: Tahoma;">But all I come across is disgust,<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: yui-tmp;"><span style="font-size: 14px; font-family: Tahoma;">Snobbishness of my superior<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: yui-tmp;"><span style="font-size: 14px; font-family: Tahoma;">Mockery from my subordinate<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: yui-tmp;"><span style="font-size: 14px; font-family: Tahoma;">Fake people who try to take advantage of me<o:p></o:p></span></p> <span style="color: rgb(0, 102, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(17, 17, 17); font-size: 14px; font-family: Tahoma;">And deceit from the person whom I trust the most</span></span>Sedeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00686686357759020274noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7582484685555591178.post-4486031521257188912010-06-25T05:25:00.000-07:002010-06-25T05:26:41.973-07:00The mask<p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 13pt;" comic="" sans="" ms="">When I was born, I had no mask. I was all innocent and didn't find it necessary to use a mask. But growing up in this society had made it mandatory for me to use many masks. I wear a thousand masks, the masks that I am afraid to take off and none of them are me. My surface may be smooth but it is not me. Beneath the surface lies no smugness and complacence but a real me in confusion, in fear and aloneness. I do not want anyone to know this and panic at the thought of exposure and that's why I frantically create my masks.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-size: 13pt;" comic="" sans="" ms=""><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <span style="font-size: 13pt;" comic="" sans="" ms="">I do not like hiding and the superficial phony game that I am playing. I would really like to be genuine and me. How can I remove the masks that I wear so that I can be who I was when I was born? I feel like Ariel- the mermaid who neither belongs to the sea nor to the land.</span>Sedeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00686686357759020274noreply@blogger.com0